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My first step to school was in year 1997. That time I was in kindergarten. I’m wearing nice red baju kurung. My mum lifted me at her bicycle and sends me to school. By then, when I got my bicycle, I went for school for myself. Then I went to SK Olak Lempit and SRA Olak Lempit during my standard 1 until 6. During that time, I am not clever as I sit at the third class when my fist in. I still remember my friends always mock me because my weird name. I cried a lot during my standard school. I do not know why they are behaving like that, what’s wrong with my name. But during ‘sekolah agama’, I am always in the top 5 students. When I was in standard 6, I becoming a prefect at ‘sekolah agama’. I am active in sport especially running. At the end, I got 2A’ and 3B’ for my UPSR and got 87.4% in PSRA.

Then I went to SMK Bukit Changgang. Here, I entered the third class at first. But then I was being change to the first class. So surprised that how can I be in the first class?? But really, I do not know why, I got my first exam, with first place. So, I am not that bad am I? I know myself, my English were bad. So I did not expect anything. I went to and back by bus. It is just about 3 km from my house. Here, I lack of socialize, and does not like involve in sport. I like to be passively. Go anywhere with no companion. I like to be alone. But I involved in NILAM program since form 1. Then I got award ‘Tokoh NILAM’ when I was in form 5. I got my first hand phone.

Actually, my academic becoming down when I was in form 4. I took science stream. I did not do well in add math and physic. Maybe the main reason is because before this, senior had said it is was hard to pass these two subjects. Because of that, I become dislike the subject and find it hard to understand what teacher taught. Moreover I felt boring with the learning process. I become a prefect in form 4 and 5.

More story on me, during my years there, my friends always want me and choose me to be treasurer. No matter in class, uniform, or club. Because of that, some of my friend called me ‘ceti’. I also held the title as chief treasurer in prefect. Here, I also always got number 5 and above. I got 8A’ in my previous PMR.

For my SPM I got 6A’, 3B’, 1C, 1D. (Additional Pendidikan Seni) Actually I thought I do not want to continue my study. I just want to work and get some money. I also applied for matrix but I did not hope anything. So, I did not successes entering matrix because I do badly in my add math. Of course I do not like that subject. Then I find job at Kodak enterprise. I worked for two month before I got offer to furthering study in form 6. I thinking and thinking and I make a decision to take it. Also because of my parent want me to accept it, following my sister’s step. Actually my dream when I was in standard, I want to school until form 6 because I love to hear the word ‘form 6’. I leave my job and taking form 6 below and upper (science stream) in the year of 2008. I finished 2 years next and got 3P in my STPM. My pointer was just in minimum to pass which is 2.00.

When waiting for the result to come out, I worked as kindergarten teacher at Tadika Az-Zahrah, Dengkil together with my sister. For 6 month. I filled up online form and choose UPSI. I am choosing Biology as my first choice because only that subject suitable with my academic achievement. Other than that needs higher pointer than I’ve got. Then, I do not know why, maybe my fate, I being here. I think I had done worst on the interview part. How can I said and required to speak in Malay. Then the interviewer said ‘no, you must try speak in English’. So, I just do it.

My family accompanied me until Tanjung Malim. My father drove car to send me here. My first semester in UPSI. I stayed in KUO. Here, I learnt how to be independent person without my parents beside me. I try to manage everything on my own. It is hard because no one will control me. Therefore I need to find good friend that can advised me in whatever I do. I go through semester one until now I was in the end of semester four. During two years here, many things I have gone through. The challenges, the emotion inside me, and so on.

In semester one, I got 3.38. For me, the pointer is high because before this I never achieved that pointer. Never once in my life. I am not very good in academic because I know myself. I am the first child of my family who had step in University. My parent was proud of me. But now the problems come inside me. The low esteem. But I tried to be good. In semester three, we need to choose minor besides our major. This is what I am worry about. At first, I choose chemistry although I did not like it. But then, that day after exam, Dr. Hashimah told that, we are not allowed to take subject under the same faculty. So the subject that she want us to choose like Kemahiran Hidup, Pendidikan Seni, Sejarah, TESL, and Pendidikan Jasmani. When I hear that, I was very happy because I want so much to take seni as my minor. Because before this I have seen Dr. to have advise about choosing minor. I ask the Dr. that I want to choose other subject that are not under science. But was not approved.

So now, I was student of Biology course and student of Art. I enjoyed being as an Art student. The surrounding was difference. As an Art student, we need to spend a lot of money because of our projects. Actually, in Art, there are theory and practical, same with Biology course. But there are a bit differences. Sometimes I cannot carry load. The assignment is too much. I cannot give cooperation to do it. For me it is a bit hard. Therefore, I really need to have a good plan.

After this, I will enter new semester. So I am hope that I will do a better than this semester. This semester I feel bad. This is because a lot use of money and also a lot of assignment. But the main point, the relationship to Allah. Because when we far from Allah, everything is not under the barokah. I need to have a good in that so that my life will be peace and will not have stress in life.